Starting Over

I've been on Blade's Edge for a couple days now.  I do like it.  People are friendly, my guild seems nice (if a little quiet on weekdays) and I'm enjoying starting over.

I'm remaking my alts.  So far I have Roseria (an undead hunter), Annanda (an orc mage), and a couple other level 1 alts that I need to weed out.  I love making alts.  And I love to level alts.  I'm going to make a blood elf warrior so I can see the starting zone there again.  I really haven't played it since BC.  It will be a nice change of pace for me.

In two days, husband and I capped our guild rep for the week.  It took us 50 dailies, 2 Elders and 2 dungeon runs.  (I was actually done before the dungeon runs, I think.)  However, husband has to build up a ret set for his pally.  (He had been healing with our old guild.)

I'm not good with change.  I'm really excited to be here and to move forward but I miss my friends.  I miss my bestie.  I still see her out of game but I miss seeing her name on my RealId and having the option to send her a message when I want.  I suppose I could text her but that's just not the same.  I've relied on this game to interact with people for so long, I don't know how to do it out of game.

My last post, I cried while writing.  I tried to read it to my husband (the man who doesn't read my blog) but I kept choking up and sobbing.  I finally made it through the post but he had to come stand behind me, with his hand on my shoulder as I cried.  (I don't accept traditional comfort when I'm crying.  I don't want to be held, I don't want someone to talk to me.  I want to be left alone where I can cry/grieve in peace.)

So. Now I'm in a new place, with new people.  I'm hopeful and I'm generally happy.  I miss people but that is normal.  There will be new people.  I need to remind myself that I don't have a set number of people I can be friends with.  I can be friends with more.  It's not like Blizz's ignore list.  I can befriend more then 50 people!

I spent some time reading Cynwise's lastest post.  And I loved it.  This is exactly it.  Cynwise GETS it.  And he has the eloquence to get it through to other people.

Characters weigh on my mind. Leveling characters, especially, but character in general. They take up mental space. They have ... presence, even when they're not doing things. I like having them around, I like having them available, I like trying out new things, but ...
Digital things can take up space.

That's it.  Right there.  My brain is filled with my characters.  Each of them are unique and I feel different when I play them.  My druid is the most comfortable but if I'm feeling sassy, I log my priest on.  Who I'm playing says a lot about my mental space.  It is like a canary in a mine.  You can look at it and be 'ah, she's feeling alone or sad or anxious or happy or sexy'.  I love that.

And now I get to start it over and find out what my new characters will bring to me.  What will my undead hunter be like?  My orc mage?  That baby blood elf warrior?  Who will be my favorite?  And do I really need to decide now?

Twice a week baby

So, my guild is back up to raiding twice a week.  Apparently my husband reads my blog.  (Husband, I would like thai food for dinner tonight and a new kitten, please to be making this happen.)  I was so happy when I saw that.  We were down a person for last week so we did 2 days of Firelands trash runs.  So now 9 members of our guild are friendly with Avengers of Hyjal and we all have shiny new cloaks.

In non raiding news, I'm about ready to attack my own factions NPCs.  The zeppelin announcers in Orgrimmar annoy the everloving crap out of me.  I should have a report spam button for them.  Or at least the ability to ignore them.  I don't care that they have arrived.  Stop shouting at me!!

I'm also thinking about going back to Outlands and grinding some BC reps.  I'm halfway through Revered with Keepers of Time, and then I have Netherwing at Neutral, Ogri'la at halfway through Honored, and Skyguard at almost Revered.  I'm just lazy and hate grinding reps.  However, I want the over 9000 achievement points achievement.  Oh the grinds I'll need to do.  (Note, there is only room in my house for 1 insane achievement whore, and that's my husband.) 

Also, you might have noticed that I'm updating every day.  I figured I would while I'm doing the 20 days of WoW challenge, otherwise I'll be doing it for 10 weeks.  And I still want to make normal posts.  So I'm going to post non-20 days of WoW posts on Mondays and Thursdays, which will hopefully be my regular update days.  We'll see how good that goes :)